Emo-ing..

Dorothea

Heys..I dunno why but lately, some stuff have been like 'haunting' me..like, they keep popping up in my mind and everything.. I woke up like abt five times last night/this morning! And I woke up from different dreams each time..some were kinda scary..but I think the scariest dream, nightmare actually, was the one I had yesterday afternoon.. I really hope 'that' doesn't come true..omg..I think I won't be able to handle it if that nightmare became reality..

Yea..well, I guess I have to admit that many of my friendship stuff have been on my mind lately..maybe that's why I had those scary dreams..haiz.. Trying to occupy myself with other thoughts and things.. But my results aren't helping either..sigh.. I know I should be listening to what all my friends and parents say..but I'm sorry and I can't help but feel this way.. Try harder next time? Are you sure if I do that, I'll get the results I'm hoping and aiming for? What if I don't? Won't that just make me feel worse? Sometimes I ask myself why the heck do I work so hard for when I'm never gonna get what I got last time in Sec One.. I don't think many people can understand these feelings.. And the only person I can blame is me.. Kinda lost hope in myself already..

Blehs..these all have been giving me a splitting headache lately..hope they'll clear soon..maybe I just really need a break..from everything..yea..maybe..haiz.. I need to talk to you badly, Fater!!